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Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Desperately Wanting


I have always been fascinated with people - guys for that matter - who play guitar. And I've always wanted to be the one who can play the guitar. I wanted to be a badass guitarist. You know. The one who plays with the band that lives and breathes beautiful music. That chic worshipped by rocker boys who got blown away by her jaw-dropping solo.

Back when guitarists were labeled "cool" and the one who'd always get the attention (and by guitarist, I mean anyone who can carry a tune with the instrument), I was pretty excited when one of my friends in high school taught me how to play the guitar. I grabbed the neck, laid it close to my chest, hugged the body, and made love with it. It was a beautiful moment. I told myself I'm going to be a budding female version of Slash sans the top hat. (I only know Slash because of Sweet Child O' Mine. Other than that... No, I won't pretend that I really know him. But yes, I wanted to have mad skills like Slash.)

That tryst came momentarily though. Nothing good came out when I started to strum. My fingers were too short. Too fidgety. Too slow. I don't press hard enough. I press too hard. I don't hit it right. I hit everything. I made a lot of excuses. It sucked. And it was a lot of effort. Even though I have enough passion for it that could have made me a pro by now, the only thing I lack and need is apparently a talent or a skill. So before my fingers could even bleed like how Bryan Adams did back in the summer of '69, I gave up and I knew then and there my rockstar chic dreams just walked away.
I'm just trying to look cool here.

Well, that isn't really new to me. Whenever I try to learn something new, my feel-good hormones would go on an overdrive and then bam! I'd suddenly lose it. This is the same reason I got bored after learning a few Spanish sentences or why I stopped planking after three religious weeks or why I never got to finish all those 30-day challenges. You see, I'm only good at the start - an enthusiastic starter at that. At least I think that's better than nothing.

I guess I have to blame that to the trait that seems to come so naturally for me, like it was imprinted on my DNA. Although none of my folks are like that. I am lazy. And these are the times I wish I could do something and become exceptionally good at it without selling my soul or having to practice ever. But life doesn't work that way - except for Mozart. His prodigious feat is an epitome of life being unfair. It will have to take years of practice to learn a skill or long frustrating hours and hard work to hone a talent. There are so many things I wish I'm good at without even trying. Cooking for example. Or Math. Or writing, to say the least.

Anyway, twelve years since my rockstar dreams walked away, I gave the guitar another go. And I've been having a love-hate relationship with it despite all the motivation and inspiration I am getting. It's been a year since I welcomed the six strings back into my fingers again, and all I can play perfectly is the G chord. I am thinking of practicing Better Than Ezra's Desperately Wanting after this post because the song title seems to fit my mood perfectly at the moment. But I realize the riff with distortion (whatever that means) at the bridge part looks difficult and might take time, so I'll just start tomorrow. And I don't know how to warm up my fingers either. They are kind of tired after typing this anyway. And I've got other things to do too, like getting distracted by anything from the internet.

Oh look, it's a dog!



Damn, I have got to stop making excuses.

25 comments:

  1. This is why I always come back here. I enjoy reading your posts. Keep dreaming and believing!

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    1. Thank you, Karina for always dropping by. ^_^

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  2. I've taught myself how to play the guitar as well as the piano and violin. I'm also opera trained! Practise definitely makes perfect when it comes to learning instruments! x
    http://cassandrarme.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Wow! That is so amazing. I think I can only play the guitar and the flute. And I'm bad at both. xD

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  3. This post is so relatable. I thought I am the queen of procrastination, but I am glad to know that there are others like me. By the way, I love your writing style. It's quite engaging. Good luck with your guitar practice. Cheers. :)

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    1. Thank you, Yamini! All hail, masters of procrastination. Haha

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  4. Remember that no one became successful overnight. It takes practice, dedication, and persistence. If you believe you can achieve something you will! Keep at it!

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    1. Yeah, I'm gonna be a rockstar! Haha. Thanks for dropping by! :)

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  5. I am lazy. And these are the times I wish I could do something and become exceptionally good at it without selling my soul or having to practice ever. But life doesn't work that way....

    This is from your post... Trust me, it says it all... Life remains a mystery.

    www.lexhansplace.com

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  6. I've had the same issue with so many things, guitar, NaNoWriMo, even 30 day Instagram challenges! I've learnt the only way to beat it is to not tell people what I'm doing because that staves off the anxiety a little.

    Great Post. <3

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    1. I never had the courage for NaNoWriMo, I think I'm not good enough. Haha. And yeah, not telling anyone should do the trick.

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  7. You look cool with that guitar ! Keep dreaming and inspiring others :)

    http://polkadotsandcurry.com/2015/09/20/how-to-style-a-long-crinkled-skirt/

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  8. I remember trying to learn how to play guitar about 8 years ago, but then after few days, I became interested in piano, and then violin and so on... I ended up not learning anything.
    Good luck and never give up like I did.

    www.mykoreaobsession.blogspot.com

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    1. I actually wanted to learn the piano too. Now I regret not having piano lessons back when my parents want me to. I didn't really give. But I tend to set aside things and just forget about it. Hehe

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  9. My husband plays the guitar, he has long beautiful fingers which make it easy for him. I've been fascinated with string instruments like the violin instead. If they weren't that pricey I would try learning how to play as well. :)

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    1. Violin is classy. Guitar on the other hand can be played anywhere, that's why I love it.

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  10. I think it's awesome when people can teach themselves, especially music related! Wish I could learn that easily!

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    1. Same here, I wish I could learn things easily.

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  11. Great post! You're a great writer!
    http://arcwrites.blogspot.com/

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  12. Hi Sarah! I can completely relate! Back in high school, I was in theatre and our band section would always jam with their guitars. So I decided to get one. But yeah, now it collects dust coz I never managed to learn (I blame it on my being sintonado. haha). But we should get over our laziness and go after things that matter! We should totally do it... Or maybe bukas na lang. Haha just kidding! We can do this!!!

    x

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    1. Oh, I am sintonado too. Haha. I always tell myself to stop being lazy. But yeah, bukas na lang. Haha. :D

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  13. you do look cool playing that guitar, I didn't learn how to play any musical instrument.

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