I am at my lowest point today. I lost my appetite, my motivation to work, and myself. I went to the office with very low spirits; unable to laugh at jokes, unable to hold a short conversation, unable to do anything right. And even those cheer-ups and pat-on-the-backs from my friends didn't work.
I smile to suppress whatever it is that I am feeling and for them not to notice it but my eyes say otherwise. The feeling's already too heavy to contain I was about to burst.
Thank God, there's Jan who was there for me even if he wasn't in his best condition. I wouldn't know how to cope if he wasn't there. Thank you Lord, for giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Jan, thanks again. I got your back, you got mine. Here's a song for you :)
I smile to suppress whatever it is that I am feeling and for them not to notice it but my eyes say otherwise. The feeling's already too heavy to contain I was about to burst.
Thank God, there's Jan who was there for me even if he wasn't in his best condition. I wouldn't know how to cope if he wasn't there. Thank you Lord, for giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Jan, thanks again. I got your back, you got mine. Here's a song for you :)
Fantasy you say?
I've been to Middle Earth, Hogwarts, Narnia, Westeros, Camp Half-blood, and to kingdoms far far away. I met wizards, kings, elves of all kinds, gods, arcanists, gracelings, mythical beings, hideous monsters, and creatures you cannot fathom.
I've rode on dragons, broom sticks, enchanted chariots, galleons, wagons of the nobility, white horses, and hippogriffs. I've witnessed alchemy, allomancy, wizardry, necromancy, numerous spells you can hardly speak, evil, death, and even love.
I survived bloody skirmishes, epic battles of gods, empires, and races, and dangerous quests to peculiar places you've never imagined. I've uncovered secrets, read manuscripts written in languages you've never heard of, unraveled mysteries, deciphered codes, and known the unknown.
I laughed, I cried, I staggered. I left the mundane world and emerged a hundred thousand words later, breathless and amazed.
Wow. I didn't realize I've travelled this much. :)
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| My fantasy shelf. Just don't mind those 3 other non-fantasy books there (if you happen to see it) |
A little conversation over Viber with someone special, not to mention, someone that I miss is more than enough to make my day. :)
Right now, I feel I am irrationally attracted to someone. And it is not just a mere form of sexual or romantic attraction. I know it runs deeper than that. There's a connection. A strong one at that. It feels like there's something in my core that inevitably, irresistibly, and inexplicably pushes me to connect with that person.
And that connection is the reason why from being a risk-taker I became too cautious because losing that connection is what scares me the most. On the other hand, if I don't take risks, I might end up losing what's already there.
I hate dilemmas. This is kinda hard. All my life I thought choosing what dress to wear is the hardest thing to decoide on. haha
And that connection is the reason why from being a risk-taker I became too cautious because losing that connection is what scares me the most. On the other hand, if I don't take risks, I might end up losing what's already there.
I hate dilemmas. This is kinda hard. All my life I thought choosing what dress to wear is the hardest thing to decoide on. haha
While commuting on my way home, I caught someone looking at me with a hint of smile in his eyes. Then I realized maybe he caught me in deep thought while staring blankly in an open space and then suddenly smiling from time to time. I may have looked crazy at that moment, but I can't help it. There are just simple things that can make me smile, and even just the thought of it can already make me happy.
If there's one thing life has taught me, it is to be thankful for the simplest and even the most ordinary things in life.
There's really no need to sprinkle on a little fancy or throw in flowery words to experience the extraordinary. Ordinary things can really be awesome sometimes.
Sharing ordinary moments with someone, like for example, having a simple but intimate conversation under a tree, or simply blurting out the same set of words simultaneously (this is a rare phenomenon and it is something to smile about hahaha), or simply talking about random things over a cup of coffee, or a simple holding of hands that can send shivers down your spine -- these are the kind of moments you (or I, for that matter) would love to hold, cherish and would tend to reminisce over and over.
I believe in simple acts, simple words, simple everything because they are, after all, the genuine ones; and nothing can beat something that is real. :)
If there's one thing life has taught me, it is to be thankful for the simplest and even the most ordinary things in life.
There's really no need to sprinkle on a little fancy or throw in flowery words to experience the extraordinary. Ordinary things can really be awesome sometimes.
Sharing ordinary moments with someone, like for example, having a simple but intimate conversation under a tree, or simply blurting out the same set of words simultaneously (this is a rare phenomenon and it is something to smile about hahaha), or simply talking about random things over a cup of coffee, or a simple holding of hands that can send shivers down your spine -- these are the kind of moments you (or I, for that matter) would love to hold, cherish and would tend to reminisce over and over.
I believe in simple acts, simple words, simple everything because they are, after all, the genuine ones; and nothing can beat something that is real. :)
