I could not find the right words to express how I feel right now. Seems everything I will say is an understatement. I am happy. I really really really am.
Hey you, handsome man with a goatee... you are mine now. And I hope you are sure of what you're getting into because I won't be giving up on you easily. Hahaha. I love you.
I went to my old room upstairs. I wasn't sure why. Perhaps I just wanted to check how it looks now or maybe I was just looking for something to do. While randomly opening cabinets and rummaging old boxes, I was so surprised to find a thing that I've been looking for a long time. This:
An original VCD of one of my most favorite movies of all time, Forrest Gump. Take note, this is the only original VCD I have ever bought my entire life. And just so you know, it took me ages to save up for this. Php 399 is no joke for a college freshmen with no more than a hundred peso allowance daily, minus the fare that already took one-fifth of it, lunch money, and endless handouts to be photocopied. What's left is for my daily dose of street food and an hour of internet usage, to which I sacrificed all. It is worth it.
I am at my lowest point today. I lost my appetite, my motivation to work, and myself. I went to the office with very low spirits; unable to laugh at jokes, unable to hold a short conversation, unable to do anything right. And even those cheer-ups and pat-on-the-backs from my friends didn't work.
I smile to suppress whatever it is that I am feeling and for them not to notice it but my eyes say otherwise. The feeling's already too heavy to contain I was about to burst.
Thank God, there's Jan who was there for me even if he wasn't in his best condition. I wouldn't know how to cope if he wasn't there. Thank you Lord, for giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Jan, thanks again. I got your back, you got mine. Here's a song for you :)
I've been to Middle Earth, Hogwarts, Narnia, Westeros, Camp Half-blood, and to kingdoms far far away. I met wizards, kings, elves of all kinds, gods, arcanists, gracelings, mythical beings, hideous monsters, and creatures you cannot fathom.
I've rode on dragons, broom sticks, enchanted chariots, galleons, wagons of the nobility, white horses, and hippogriffs. I've witnessed alchemy, allomancy, wizardry, necromancy, numerous spells you can hardly speak, evil, death, and even love.
I survived bloody skirmishes, epic battles of gods, empires, and races, and dangerous quests to peculiar places you've never imagined. I've uncovered secrets, read manuscripts written in languages you've never heard of, unraveled mysteries, deciphered codes, and known the unknown.
I laughed, I cried, I staggered. I left the mundane world and emerged a hundred thousand words later, breathless and amazed.
Wow. I didn't realize I've travelled this much. :)
My fantasy shelf. Just don't mind those 3 other non-fantasy books there (if you happen to see it)
Right now, I feel I am irrationally attracted to someone. And it is not just a mere form of sexual or romantic attraction. I know it runs deeper than that. There's a connection. A strong one at that. It feels like there's something in my core that inevitably, irresistibly, and inexplicably pushes me to connect with that person.
And that connection is the reason why from being a risk-taker I became too cautious because losing that connection is what scares me the most. On the other hand, if I don't take risks, I might end up losing what's already there.
I hate dilemmas. This is kinda hard. All my life I thought choosing what dress to wear is the hardest thing to decoide on. haha
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