There was a time when a fellow blogger walked up to me and said, "I read your blog and I look up to you, Ate Sar." (non-verbatim)

WHOAH! WHOAH! WHOAH! HOLD IT RIGHT THERE, YOUNG BUDDY! Because you don't know what you're talking about. But, thank you!

It's not the first time I heard someone say that but it never really sank in me because I honestly still think of myself as a misfit. Not worthy of being an inspiration or an "idol". I suck as a blogger and an adult too.

All this time, I thought that people who read my blog will see me as an internet drama queen who whines about working too hard but is lazy as fuck, or someone who constantly complains about being broke and still eats at Japanese restos every week.

I don't remember the last time I posted something beautiful or helpful. I only blog about the most trivial and uninteresting things in my life. I also rant, but in the most subtle, often (slightly) funny way, with an occasional use of strong language.

I think people see a different Sarah whenever they read this blog. But here's the thing, if you meet me in person and expect me to utter "shit" and "fuck" like how I do it here because I'm supposedly pissed off at the littlest things, then you're going to be disappointed.


In real life, I try to avoid confrontations. I'm not comfortable using any word that spells profanity. I don't swear, I don't cuss, and definitely, I'm not a drama queen who complains a lot. Also, I don't think I am funny in any way.

I don't know what people see in me that's worth looking up to. Maybe it's the way I write. Or maybe it's the way I live. But if there's one thing I am sure of, I may seem like a totally different person in this blog, but the stories you read here are 95% true. The rest is just, well, an exaggeration of shit. I think it makes reading interesting. So if you read somewhere in this blog to go fuck yourself, well, it's up to you how you're going to take it.

Anyway, I'm sharing with you my 2 seconds of fame because one day I'm going to make it to national tv as a blogger awardee. That is, if I don't win the next draw in lottery.